“I’ve known that I’ve been different since the age of six, and I couldn’t process it and I couldn’t put my finger on what it was until high school, my freshman year, when I knew I was gay. The morning he found out he was the Bachelor, he prayed to God and thanked him “for making me straight.” “I remember that vividly, saying, ‘Finally, you’re letting me be straight,’” Underwood recalled. I wish that I would’ve been courageous enough to fix myself before I broke anybody else.” I would just say that I’m sorry from the bottom of my heart…. I, obviously, had an internal fight going on. “And it’s hard for me to articulate what exactly my emotions were…. “If I’m being very honest, I loved everything about her,” he said. Underwood says he was “in love” with Randolph, which only made his sexuality “harder and more confusing” for him. And to Cassie Randolph, the woman he picked on the show who later filed (and then dropped) a restraining order against him, Underwood says, “I’d like to say sorry for how things ended.
